After Contemplation

Last sunday, i scoured all the place i love in Jakarta,
Just to find the answer for my question
over what hapenned to my past, my present, what i've done...and what i will do

I finally stopped at the mall...
Yeah..crowded..too much people
I then again..I scolded my self to stop and scour this mall..
But hey.. i went alone..with no cellphone along with me..with no one else to be considered..
I went alone..with my own..bloody body, bloody mind..
Freedom is what i felt that day...

Round and Round
I stepped my barely foots..
....
Went to book store..
my eyes went sore afterwards, as i forgot to put on my glasses...
Went to music store..
Can't find what i am looking for..
I walked with barely foots...
Ugh...I haven't found the answer over my dilema..

Then i saw Starbucks..
I ordered Passion Tea.
Sat alone, i scketched..
I didn't know what it was...

It was almost afternoon..
I spent almost half day scoured the mall..

On my way home,
Out of the blue..the answers poped up..

ANOMALY...AND NEAR MISS...
Those words could described what i have done and what is still going on...

yeah..
Me..against my own will..
my own..bloody will..and expectation..
I got home...

Tired, exhausted..
`kruger`