Confused

It feels like i am in the intersection. Can't figure out which way I have to go. So vague I am. Yes...It's been a long I've never felt like this before..Maybe too many things in my head that made me so confused:(..

I don't feel like going to the mall but I am heading to the mall. Don't feel like waiting, but I am waiting. Don't want to be alone but I am alone right now. Don't feel like doing anything, but I am typing at the moment. Feel like going home, but I am still somewhere far from home. Don't feel like meeting with people, but I am here waiting for the meeting..

What's wrong with me today? It's like am loosing my own grip. Can't resist myself to get in to the store to check the latest fancy bag, the irresistible shoes and ...Uhmm...

Am I reluctant to accept the reality?
Do I just feel lonely?
It's helluva beyond my comprehension.

I don't know what to do yet so many things to do..
Bliss, yes I am looking forward to see the bliss..to feel to experience it...Oh God, Bless me.

I believe this is gonna be like any other day, where I have to follow the fate. Follow where my car's wheels take me..

Now I am sitting in the smoking area of a coffee club inside a mall...So many things are dangling in my mind....ah, I have to take a breathe and decides where the hell I want to go afterwards...

Ah, confused...