I want to have a baby

It's been nearly 4 years and half since my last pregnancy. Now I don't know just how, I feel like to have a baby. To carry a life inside my body, to preserve the goodness. I just want to fall in love again, but this time with a pure soul like a baby. I just want to be occupied. I want to share my love to someone who's really pure heart, doesn't have any ulterior motive, doesn't take you for granted. Ahh, what am I talking about. Yeah I just ramble the thought that danced in my mind this morning. Hmmm...My moods really swing. I have to do something, what would that be?

Maybe erasing some expectations which bugged me most of these days. Do I need some pity from others? I don't know...Maybe I do...

I am just feeling bored...and the idea of having a baby just crossed my mind as a way out of these confusions. Arrrgh...Can't be like this all the time, I have to find the solution.

Sleeping all day?
Going out to places?
Have a decent conversation?
Erasing expectations?
Roaring my wishes to the sky?
Seems so damn boring, doesn't it?

Maybe I walked so fast that I start to expect the world should walk in the same rhythm.
Maybe I ate so quick that I felt hungry so quickly as well
Maybe I loved too much that I started to get hurt..

AYAYAYAYAYAYA...
Shall we eat?
a Baby?hmmm maybe next year aja!:)
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same here

So afraid to ask..

Cause you know that you won't get any response?

So afraid to move

Cause you know it will stop you?

So numb to feel

Cause you know it will hurt you again?

Same here..literally...same here

So irresistible

Got to have this soon..
my fingers are craving for this gadget..
Ahh..it's been so long I haven't hold any cool gadget-last one was Palm 72-in my palm. Arghhh...But this time I promise myself not to break it, keep it safe from children or from my clumsiness ...
So irresisstable

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Sweet Escape

If I could escape
I would, but first of all let me say
I must apologize for acting, stinking, treating you this way
Cause I've been acting like sour milk fell on the floor
It's your fault you didn't shut the refridgerator
Maybe that's the reason I've been acting so cold

If I could escapeAnd re-create a place as my own world
And I could be your favorite girlForever, perfectly together
Tell me boy, now wouldn't that be sweet?
If I could be sweetI know I've been a real bad girl
I didn't mean for you to get hurtForever, we can make it better

Tell me boy, Now wouldn't that be sweet?
Sweet escape(I wanna get away, to our sweet escape)
You let me downI'm at my lowest boiling point
Come help me outI need to get me out of this joint
Come on, let's bounce
Counting on you to turn me around
Instead of clowning around let's look for some common ground

So baby, times getting a little crazy
I've been getting a little lazy
Waiting for you to come save me
I can see that you're angry
By the way the you treat me
Hopefully you don't leave me
Want to take you with me

If I could escape
And re-create a place as my own world
And I could be your favorite girl
Forever, perfectly together
Tell me boy, now wouldn't that be sweet?
If I could be sweetI know I've been a real bad girl

I didn't mean for you to get hurt
Forever, we can make it better
Tell me boy, now wouldn't that be sweet?
Sweet escape
Whohoe, whihooWhohoe, whihooWhohoe, whihooWhohoe, whihoo...

The lyrics of Sweet Escape from Gwen Stefani

It comes again...again and again

* unknown *
Beep Beep..Beep Beep

I am about to pick it up and it's disconnected right before I could say "Hello..."

It's that * unknown* in *unknown* place, tried to pull me again unknowingly...

...sigh....

There are things better left unsaid

We all have a secret or two..that keeps our life revives day by day..or maybe worsen the life itself. Take an example, what was your last honest confession?

It's so difficult to say the honesty..
We are a selfish human being, that can't accept any accusation...
We don't want to be blame anyhow..
We don't want to say that we're guilty..

So it's obvious that many things are better left unsaid..
Like your past and your present..and maybe your future...

Ode to anyone who always said that I am being honest ...